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So I found a place to live, I think. It's on 17th and Mill, with Sarah Cousins and David Fruchter and Michael Galen. It would be fun. I hope it works out, it's relatively cheap. Oh and this made me cry:

Hey Lyzi,
So, there have been many things that I've wanted to say to you, and I wanted to actually talk to you about them in person, but I'm just really busy and the situation has become even more pressing. You are one of my best friends, and I love you. Sometimes I think you think that this will change, but sadly you are fucking stuck with me for life. I'm sorry if I seem mad at you sometimes, it's just that sometimes, I can't take the drama. I know that you can't either. I've dealt with my fair share of my own emotional issues and I wanted to offer some advice. One of the biggest things I had to learn was how to cope with things that seem really overwhelming. How I had to do it was, stop smoking pot everyday and binge drinking, and when a situation came up that all I wanted to do was cry and scream, I went for a run. Afterwards, I was just too tired to be emotional about it and the issue just seemed a lot smaller and easier to deal with. I know that everyone has different coping mechanisms, but this one worked really well for me and I know you said you started to run not too long ago. I also wanted to suggest that you start to see a counselor. When I was a freshman, and I was really having a hard time (i.e. really suicidal) this made all the difference. Just the act of telling someone who doesn't know anything, everything was so amazing and relieving. I'm sorry if I'm giving you advice that you already know, but maybe a reminder is all you needed and to know that I'm here for you. It's just that you need to start to take a more active role in dealing with these issues. Because as hard as they can be for me, I can only imagine what you are going through. And you don't deserve to be this unhappy. You are an amazing intelligent wonderful person, and I'm starting to think that maybe you have forgotten this. You deserve to be happy and you deserve to have people love and respect you. I know that I've added to the stress that you've been feeling and I'm sorry about that. I know I'm lame with the MD stuff, but I'm just so beyond burnt out on it. And we'll figure something out about the living situations. Maybe Ben will get his shit together? Either way I love you and I always will. . .just please, start to take care of yourself! We need to go and have adventures this summer!
-zig

I think I'm going to go for a run.